Sunday, February 8, 2009

Sweet.

I hate life and everything about it.

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Broke and jobless.

Here I am. In New Jersey. Living with the man I love the most.

Alright. Only one problem.

I've managed to run completely OUT of money. I've been sending out at least 5-8 resumes daily. I've had one job interview in TriBeCa. I should hear next week whether I get the job. I swear, I better get this job. Because if I don't, or at least if I don't find a job soon, I don't know what I'm going to do. I have maxed out numerous credit cards. And my bank account is empty. I have BILLS, and student loans to pay back. Not to mention RENT.

At this point, I'm completely freaking out (only on the inside) and I do not know what I'm going to do. Obviously, the first thing on my priority list is to obtain a job immediately. And I'm so desperate right now. This is exactly what I hate: living paycheck to paycheck. Granted, I've never actually HAD to live paycheck to paycheck, but I now am, and it sucks. I just need something, anything, to lift my spirits. I need some kind of reassurance that everything is going to be okay. Because right now, things aren't looking great and I really don't know what to do. Maybe I'm too cautious and worried about having bad credit. I've never missed a payment in three years, so I guess I just need to relax a little. I just heard today my brother's going through the same thing.

So what I have to look forward to: my phone being shut off, not having money for groceries, four (!!!) late credit card payments, not actually getting to sleep in a REAL bed for another couple of months, late student loan payments, unemployment, and a plethora of other various problems. At least the love life is great and I have someone to (emotionally) support me. This is what I came out here for. Now I have to deal with it. So stop bitching and moaning, and start job searching, for the third time today.