Happy Thanksgiving.

Oh wow, I can't believe it's almost 5 o'clock already. I feel like I have so much to do and time is at warp speed. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and there's still a lot of chores I have to do, like clean, do laundry, do my nails, ect. I'm meeting some of my old high school friends tonight at a local spot, so it will be nice to catch up with some people who I haven't seen in years.

I've been doing a lot of serious thinking about the whole move to New Jersey thing. It's definitely the first thing in my priority list right now. I just have to fine the funds to do so. I will have to get the first job I can find out there, non-PR related most likely since I will desperately need money for rent and various other bills. I got a letter in the mail the other day, which I had a good feeling of what it was, so I didn't bother to open it for two weeks. It's a letter telling me that I have to begin payment on one of my student loans next month. Ugh. I knew it. That's two of them that I will be paying on. Not to mention all the other loans I have taken out. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I want to think that going to a university was for the better. I have to convince myself that my bachelor's degree is actually worth it, but I'm having a hard time believing that right now. I hate complaining about it because I know I'm not the only person in the world in this position. Thousands of dollars in debt with no signs of relief in sight. I actually am afraid of filing for bankrupty as a twenty-something and it absolutely scares me. So many young people my age are having to do the same thing and it's just..crazy.

The only good thing to have happened is gas prices. $1.54 a gallon now. Now that I don't have to drive anywhere.

I am feeling so ripped off by everything. Everything can be taken away from me, my posessions, my dignity, my freedom. Everything except my life. And I guess that's all that matters, right? No one ever said life was easy, but this is just starting to get ridiculous.

I refuse to share my worries and concerns with anyone. Or at least I try to make them not seem as serious as they really are. That is what I have this blog for. I simply cannot cry on anyone's shoulder about my debt because it was a choice I made, and I always find a way out of things.

This Thanksgiving, there is not much in my life to be thankful for. I guess I am breathing, and that's a start, right?

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone else out there. Make sure you ration the turkey.

<3

Lessons in Love

I liked this when I saw this. I am going to have to keep this in mind for the future, for when things get rough, and when I need a brief reminder.

From http://your-illfitting-overcoat.blogspot.com/:

A few of the things I've learned:
-No relationship is perfect. No, seriously. Not. Perfect. At. All.
-Soul mates wear disguises. Sometimes the love of your life doesn't look, walk, or talk like the ideal mate you've spent your life imagining. In fact, that's usually the case.
-Love takes time. 'Love at first sight' isn't love. Neither is 'love after three weeks' or 'love after three months'. Real love is a process, just like real friendship.
-Everyone has issues. Everyone has emotional baggage and everyone makes mistakes. Even people who seem like they have it all together.
-All relationships have conflict. Lots of it. In the beginning, in the middle, and all throughout. That's what happens when two adults-- carrying with them a lifetime of unique experiences, habits, and choices-- allow themselves to be vulnerable and build a life together. It's hard. And it's supposed to be.


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**Spoiler Alert***

Guess what?

I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight! I saw twilight!

Did you get all that?!!?

Holy crap the movie went by so fast compared to everything that happened in the books. There were a lot of differences and things that didn't happen. Should've stuck with the book, but that would've made a 6 hour long movie. I almost wish Bella narrated the movie so we could get a glimpse of how much she actually loves Edward. The book explains everything just so much better.

Not completely sure that I liked the Bella character. She was exactly how she was in the book, but I feel she is misunderstood because we don't know what's going on her head (much like Edward). Hmm. Kristen Stewart is alright. Wouldn't personally be my choice but she did wonderful. Other than the whole emo business.

Edward. Where do I start with Edward?! Amazing. Perfect. Beautiful. Mmmmm. Yeah, I know you all know what I'm talking about.

Alice and Jasper were excellent, a good picture of how I imagined them. Alice was friendly and charming and she literally did dance when she walked. Jasper actually did look like he was the one in pain. Emmett was a huge dork! hahaha!! Tough guy! I liked him! He made me laugh, as he did in the books as well. Rosalie probably exuded the most personality, even if it was hatred toward Bella. Rosalie definitely did not have this much action in the books. Not until Renesmee came along at least. Carlisle and Esme were great too! Carlisle was great and we actually got to see a little more about him and his personality than the others. Esme did a great job too.

Mike Newton and Jessica were both equally annoying. Mike being a complete goof and Jessica a ditz. Perfect for each other. Angela and Eric were alright.

Ok I'm still freaking out. The first time I saw Edward on screen...he has the most perfect hair ever. I promise I'm going to stop talking about Edward. And all of his perfectness.

Edward was more rude in the movie than he was in the book, which I hated, but I guess it gave him more personality. Kinda creepy because he was watching her for months without her knowing. I think my favorite scene was when they were playing baseball. Too bad it was so short. I wish it was longer because it was so fun!!!

Overall the movie left so much that I feel really defined the relationships between the characters. I feel like people who didn't watch the book wouldn't know SO much that's necessary to understand. Ahhhh so much was left out!

I know the next one isn't coming out until 2010 but I already can't wait!!! This shit's gonna keep me excited until 2015!! lol!

Love it! Love it! Love it!!!

I was just thinking about it.

"I have to tell you something and I don't want you to be mad." is the worst sentence in the world to hear.

One thing's for sure...

Of COURSE I am! Why wouldn't I be?!?!

Alright. Let's get one thing straight. I read all of the books, from cover to cover, all four. In less than two weeks. I read like nonstop for two weeks.

Because I am a (twenty-two-year-old) Twilight fan, I am of course looking forward to the movie coming out tomorrow at midnight (technically Friday). Although I've watched the trailer (probably more than a million times), and watches the movie clips (also probably more than a million times), I'm not sure the movie is going to live up to the greatness of the book. Of course, movies are never as good as the book. But I'm thinking that this movie is going to be particularly bad. I don't even know how you can possibly capture the true essence of Edward and Bella on-screen. Bella actually tells you what's going through her mind in the books. I just don't think it's going to be as good. I am, however, still excited for the movie.

Alright, what else is going on in my life? I can honestly say not a whole lot. I mean the biggest change to occur may actually be the new xbox live dashboard. But that's probably not something I care enough to write about.

I'm feeling...

...pretty terrible lately. I don't know. Physically and mentally. I've been having some pretty shitty tummyaches lately, can't figure out why. I have a good idea why, but I think the only way to solve THAT problem is surgery, so we're going to skip the doctors appointment on that one. I'll just live with the daily pain. Whatever. I don't care.

So my next major thing is that I'm trying to figure out how to be with my buddy (CB). I want to start a new, more adventurous life (LOL!!) and I want to begin by moving out to New Jersey to be with him. I have a pretty good feeling about this. I think things will work out the way they are supposed to, right? Have faith in life, right?

OMG I'm gonna kill him. He thinks he's driving out here sometime soon. With his brother. Ugh. This is the problem with someone having your address. If they are determined enough, THEY SHOW UP AT YOUR DOORSTEP. Yes, this has happened before. Last month actually when V showed up from California to my house. I absolutely freaked. NOT cool when I say it's NOT okay.

Alright, well, now I'm having a panic attack. Sooo. awesome. Sweet. Let's hope I don't start seizuring. Weeee!

Love life.

XOXO
Peace. Love. XD.

Snow: The Final Arrival

The snow is on it's way. I can feel the cold bitterness in the air. I can feel the cold pricking my skin like a thousand sharp needles. It is uncomfortable, but inevitable. The cold brings the snow every year; I should be used to it. Living in Michigan, I am no stranger to what the cold and the snow mean each year. Although I claim to hate it, I have no idea how the winter season could possibly exist without snow. Or even coldness for that matter.

As you might be able to tell, I am freezing right now. There's a crazy cold draft in my room that's making sleep a hard activity to endure. I snuggle in my down comforter to escape, my shield from the needles.

There hasn't really been anything new happening in my life as of late. I recently purchased Gears of War 2 for Xbox 360, so I've been playing that with CB a lot lately. It's a really good game. I never played the first one. After spending nearly 39 days TOTAL playing Call of Duty 4, this is a great change of pace. I can literally play CoD4 in my sleep. I've spent more time than anyone I know on that game. I'm so good at it, too. So now when I play GoW2, I'm a little depressed that I'm that so great. It's a completely different style of gameplay. I sound like a nerd so I'm going to move on.

I an considerably happy with the presidential election. Although I am a little curious as to how everything will pan out in the next four years. I already heard the possibility of Obama tapping into the rescue fund to help save Michigan's auto industry. Yes, I actually just made a news reference, which may be the most intelligent thing I've said yet on my blog.

As B, my boss, once told me, it is important to make a goal and a game plan. I already picked my goal, and now I need to figure out how I am going to achieve this goal. I'm scared to death, but it is something I want more than anything in the world, so it's going to happen.

I also figured out how many more hours I need to graduate in December. I actually only need 63 I believe. In five weeks. I think it can be done, don't you? I need 300 total and I've worked there since June. I've decided that I'm going to do what I need to do to graduate in December. School should come first. My bachelors degree is so close, I can taste it. But before that, I still have a lot of work to do. I better get started, right?

First things first, I have to get on a normal sleeping schedule. I can't keep going to bed at 4 in the morning. I sleep every night from 4 a.m. to noon. Which is a good eight hours but still inconvenient. Oh well. Tomorrow, resumes, work, tanning, work out, conference call, and maybe some other things. Let's get started on this game plan. = )

Peace. Love. XD.

GO VOTE!

Yes, I just spent 12 straight hours completing New Moon, the second book in the Twilight series. Twelve straight hours of nothing but reading. I don't even know if I ate, or rather breathed during this time.

Honestly, between Nate Archibald and Edward Cullen, I may actually go crazy. I haven't encountered such parasocial interaction in quite some time. Of course it's imaginary, but can't I at least dream? hehe.

I'm also a HUGE True Blood fan now as well. LOVE that show (HBO, Sundays @ 9p).

Vampires may be subjected to eternal damnation, but why the hell do they still have to be so cool?

Anyway, NOVEMBER 4TH, GO VOTE! I don't care WHO you vote for, just go do it.

I wish I would've pick up an absentee ballot. I'm not wanting to wait in line forever. Whatever though. I can start reading Eclipse. hehe.

On another note, I've gotten pretty alright at Texas Hold 'Em. lol. I have so much free time, it's ridiculous.

More later.

xoxo
Peace.Love.XD.