Happy Thanksgiving.

Oh wow, I can't believe it's almost 5 o'clock already. I feel like I have so much to do and time is at warp speed. Thanksgiving is tomorrow and there's still a lot of chores I have to do, like clean, do laundry, do my nails, ect. I'm meeting some of my old high school friends tonight at a local spot, so it will be nice to catch up with some people who I haven't seen in years.

I've been doing a lot of serious thinking about the whole move to New Jersey thing. It's definitely the first thing in my priority list right now. I just have to fine the funds to do so. I will have to get the first job I can find out there, non-PR related most likely since I will desperately need money for rent and various other bills. I got a letter in the mail the other day, which I had a good feeling of what it was, so I didn't bother to open it for two weeks. It's a letter telling me that I have to begin payment on one of my student loans next month. Ugh. I knew it. That's two of them that I will be paying on. Not to mention all the other loans I have taken out. I don't even know what to do with myself right now. I want to think that going to a university was for the better. I have to convince myself that my bachelor's degree is actually worth it, but I'm having a hard time believing that right now. I hate complaining about it because I know I'm not the only person in the world in this position. Thousands of dollars in debt with no signs of relief in sight. I actually am afraid of filing for bankrupty as a twenty-something and it absolutely scares me. So many young people my age are having to do the same thing and it's just..crazy.

The only good thing to have happened is gas prices. $1.54 a gallon now. Now that I don't have to drive anywhere.

I am feeling so ripped off by everything. Everything can be taken away from me, my posessions, my dignity, my freedom. Everything except my life. And I guess that's all that matters, right? No one ever said life was easy, but this is just starting to get ridiculous.

I refuse to share my worries and concerns with anyone. Or at least I try to make them not seem as serious as they really are. That is what I have this blog for. I simply cannot cry on anyone's shoulder about my debt because it was a choice I made, and I always find a way out of things.

This Thanksgiving, there is not much in my life to be thankful for. I guess I am breathing, and that's a start, right?

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone else out there. Make sure you ration the turkey.

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