Because I'm Gold

Being a "gold" person, it is important to me to keep my life in order by means of listmaking. I think in order to figure out what I want, then I'm going to make a list of, well, all the things I want. It would probably help me figure myself out a little more.

I also want to point out that its 10:37 on a Saturday morning. I got my ass out of bed for a 10 a.m. meeting on a Saturday morning. I drove an hour and a half to the city (Detroit), and I got here 20 minutes late (reaalllyy shitty morning). ANNDDD the meeting hasn't started yet...It's almost 11 a.m. If someone would've told me...I would've came at 11. So I wouldn't have had to wake my hungover ass out of bed at 7:30 for this. On a Saturday morning. It's alright though. It gives me time to blog. hehe. It's now 10:40. I should be sleeping.

Things I want:
-I want to be happy
-I want to make other people happy
-I want to make time for other people
-I want graduate
-I want to move out of Michigan
-I want to move East, West or South
-I want to have money
-I want to drive my OWN car
-I want to love someone who loves me in return
-I want to love someone who is willing to spend as much time as me as I am on them
-I want to stop feeling crappy all the time
-I want to stop starting these sentences off by I want

There's hella more that I want, but those are what's important to me.

I think the things that I want are things that everyone wants. The difference between wanting and having is that I have to go out and get these things. Money, love and expensive cars are not going to fall in my lap. I have to go GET THEM. I know this. The money's out there. It is. It's sitting out there, waiting for me. I have to go get it (legitimately). Don't stop trying; don't give up. If I want it, then I have to go get it. I wish I was the kind of person who works 80 hours a week, is never home, and is a millionaire by age 25. I choose not to be. I could be. But I'm not.

I don't know. I don't know about anything. Why can't the people that are supposed to love me just love me? It seems like I get in that pre-dating phase and everythings great, but once I'm in the im-your-girlfriend phase, things go to hell and other guys start coming into the picture. I have to push people away because I'm taken. This is making me think that I should stay out of the girlfriend phase and stay in the pre-girlfriend phase. The phase that gives you butterflies in the tummy. And things stay fresh and exciting and you can't wait to talk to them everyday...ahh the good times.

:)

Alright, its 11. The meeting I think might be starting soon. Maybe. Have a wonderful day!

XD.