Seems like they don't love you til you're dead, right?

I love that I didn't even finish that last blog. I don't really remember what I was doing, but I was sidetracked by something. I'm constantly getting sidetracked.I guess that's the way I am though. I have to make myself available 24/7. I like being available for anyone to get ahold of whenever they need me, but damn. Sometimes it can be overwhelming. There's a lot of people between work, my real life friends and xbox friends. But what can I do?

I'm going to write a flat out letter. IF you boys ever read my blog, you would know this. The simple honest, flat out truth.

Dear V,
I am no longer your girlfriend because I gave my whole heart to someone else, and I made a promise that I wouldn't break it. I am truly sorry. I know I hurt you because you expected me to be someone that I am not for you. You also nicely told me that you want me to look better. And that you were afraid of cheating on me. It's over and I'm passed it. I feel like you should try moving on as well. And no, you're not flying out here.

Dear CB,
I did make a promise to you that I will never break your heart. You mean SO much to me, more than I will ever begin to explain to you. I know how hard it was for you to open up to me and tell me how much you love me. You didn't know if I felt the same way, but you took a dive and went for it anyway. I am so glad that you did. I have sooo much to tell you that it's hard for me to find the words when I'm talking to you. We have been through so much together, and I know we are going to go through so much more. You have worked so hard to change things in your life for me, and I couldn't be more proud of you. I hope you know how happy you make me every day.

You made me download this song tonight:
Let it slide, let your troubles fall behind you, let it shine until you feel it all around you, and I don't mind if it's me you turn to, we'll get by, it's the heart that really matters in the end.

It's so true and I know things are bad, but we will get through them all. I love you so much.


XD.